To set the scene, it was January 2021, and I needed to get out of the house. Not only that, but I wanted to be inspired. We decided to go to the MoMa for the day, and my spirits lifted. I came across a painting by František Kupka called 'Mme Kupka among Verticals.' It instantly caught my eye. I wrote it down in my "idea book" because I wanted to recreate it in the future. Three years later, here we are.

It made me think about ideas and how they come to fruition. I know I speak a lot about the past (like I am becoming an "in my day." person, omg,) but I often reflect on the "fearlessness" I had when I was younger. That doesn't mean the projects I was putting out were cutting edge, but I liked organizing a plan, taking the journey with that plan, and then putting something I'm proud of out. Luckily, after working with my therapist, I understand the control aspect has been hindering my growth over the past couple of years. I wasn't giving myself enough grace when thinking about and working on things. When I put out ideas in the early 2010s - social media was NOT the machine it is now, so why am I comparing those energies?

I say all that to say that I'm starting to understand myself more as I settle into my 30s, and I'm very excited to see what more I do. Again, not to say that this painting is all that (I do like it better in my hand than scanned), but the grace I'm giving myself can light up a room, a damn mansion if you will!

Kind of reminds me of this post I did last year as well.